Thursday, April 12, 2012

Reminiscing With My Psyche

I am so much, yet I am nothing.... I have learned many lessons, yet I have an insurmountable amount of knowledge to attain... I believe in many things, yet I leave some of those beliefs behind and discover new ones to take their place..... As my vocabulary increases, I take the simple words for granted and yet my thoughts become even more impossible to articulate.... I gain strength, courage, and confidence, yet as my outer shell becomes harder, my inner self is more often lost and vulnerable.... My path through life that I so clearly saw and followed years before becomes blurred and strange; I often wonder if it was ever mine to begin with, but I continue to follow it in search of a sign, of proof that it, in fact, will lead me to truth, to happiness.... I question many issues and injustices in my life, in this World, yet I allow myself to be ignorant to many others.... I am kind, sensitive, and generous, but also vain, selfish, and indifferent.... I want, take, and give... I live, hurt, and love...I am so much, yet I am nothing...


I wrote this about two and a half years ago and it was just as true then as it is now. I know I have grown, a part of me has changed, yet my inner self is so much the same as it was two years ago, maybe even the same as it was in High School. I believe that as much as we grow up and face the world - learn from it, there is still some innocence inside us all - for we don't know everything. Our experiences change us, though pain and joy, though sorrow and ecstasy. They say wisdom comes with age. All we need is to carry ourselves with conviction, the rest will follow.

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